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The POD shows up tomorrow. Jackie and I will start to fill it up with the boxes we have been packing. It is a strange feeling moving again. At this point in life I had hoped to be settled into one place and stay there, to buy a house and live the rest of my days there. Now we are trying to sell that house and move back to Arizona. We go to serve in an area that God has gifted to Amor and with it comes uncertainties and difficulties. It is strange that this move to Arizona fills me with more fear than our move to El Paso. We are going home in a sense and yet there is far more uncertainty to this move.
So why move? It is a fair question.
To be honest I have asked myself that question many times over the past year as I have oscillated back and forth over the right thing to do. If I had just any job it would be an easy answer. I would have quit long ago. I would stay right where I am, if only for the desire of my daughter to be near her friends or just the familiarity of this house that has become our home.
But, God is in the mix, the God who has offered me a life redeemed, despite my continued failings. I love Him and it is why I serve. It is why I came to work with Amor and it is why I cannot leave. I do not feel him leading me away from Amor. Through all the difficulties we have faced the past two years I have not felt led to leave. Now more than ever I feel he has asked me to endure the difficulties and uncertainties a while longer, to see them to a resolution.
So, we are moving. Uncertain of whether or not our house will sell. Uncertain if Jackie will find work. But knowing that God has been with us every step of the way thus far and we have no reason to doubt him now. I am sacred but I trust God and I know that no matter my circumstance He cares for me.
Arizona…
Ready or not, here we come.
